Induction turned cesarean – my birth story.

Disclaimer: This is not medical advice, only a lady telling the story of her first birth.

I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes during my pregnancy and because of the risks that accompany that me and my doctor decided I should have an induced labor. She said typically women get induced in between 38-40 weeks with gestational diabetes. Knowing this and working around scheduling we decided on July 19th, starting with cervical ripening the evening before.

I checked into the hospital at 7 pm Thursday night through the ER, we got settled in the delivery room had my first cervical exam and I was only dilated to .5 cm. This meant I needed to start on a cervical ripening medication called cytotech before starting pitocin. They administered the cytotech at 8:30 pm, and again at 12:30 am. This medication didn’t feel like it was doing much for me but it was something that worked over time. Over the night I slept like normal and Vincent, my husband, slept next to me in the recliner.

At 4:30 am I was given my first dose of pitocin to induce contractions. So far over the night I felt like I was having regular menstrual cramps and was prepared for it to really start ramping up, it didn’t seem much worse the first dose of pitocin.

Around 7 am I was served breakfast and they increased the dose of my pitocin. They did start getting a little worse but I was still able to sleep through them because I took a couple hour nap.

At about 11 am I had another cervical exam and still had not dilated more than 1 cm. Because of this my doctor suggested a Foley balloon catheter which pressed against my cervix to help it dilate. This procedure was pretty uncomfortable and once it was in my contractions really felt painful and I no longer could get out of bed without help.

I tried to eat lunch after this but only ate a few bites of a sandwich because I was feeling nauseated. They decreased my pitocin levels so the catheter could work better with less contractions interrupting which was good because I was very uncomfortable! I had been on fluids for a straight 8 hours so I felt insanely bloated, my IV sight was bruising and itching along with my stomach which was itching on top of my contractions, then I had five different monitors strapped to me, a catheter taped to my thy and started to vomit. Once I calmed down after getting sick I would walk some laps to get more ice water.

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A little before 6 pm they did another cervical exam, removed the balloon catheter and broke my water. This was so much pressure relieved but the pain moved right to my back instead. At that point I was dilated to almost 3.5 cm so I had quite a ways to go, I did a few more laps, tried an exercise ball to take off pressure and then decided I wanted an epidural. Once the anesthesiologist arrived it still took about 30 minutes to set up and get it in place. Finally it was 7:30 pm and I had my epidural. I felt so much better without the pain but sadly some complications came with this.

Right away they noticed my blood pressure drop a tiny bit, but it came back at the normal rate. This is a normal side effect of an epidural but what wasn’t normal was for my baby’s heart rate to drop. It started small right after getting my epidural and kept dropping each time I had a contraction, so they lowered the dose of my pitocin. This went on for about two hours before it was dropping so low that it could be detrimental. At this point they stopped my pitocin completely and called in my doctor.

She arrived at about 10 pm, checked my vitals, did quick exam and then went to look over the heart rate monitor and contraction monitor charts to see what was really happening. After about twenty minutes she came back and informed us that this was becoming to severe and we would have to have a c-section. It would take about 30 minutes for the team to arrive and get the surgical suite ready, get my spinal block done and move our stuff into the recovery room. This time went by so fast, my mother, sister and nephews came back to the hospital to wait to meet Marcel and as they were walking in I was being wheeled off to the surgical suite.

Immediately after being wheeled into the suite the anesthesiologists were placing their monitors, positioning my arms, putting up the privacy sheet and then did their final tests to make sure I was fully numb. My poor husband Vincent was having issues with the sterile suit he had to wear because he was too tall so his entrance was a little delayed. While he was struggling with that my doctor had to make the incision which was so fast. She finished that and they pulled a sheet over me so Vincent couldn’t see, moved him into his seat next to my head and then continued. We were a little distracted from each other because I was being asked so many questions to make sure I couldn’t feel anything and he was super uncomfortable just trying not to pass out from this tiny suit squeezing him along with the surgical mask covering his face. After about 15 minutes they told me I would feel pressure from someone pressing down on my stomach while the doctor pulled out my baby. This feeling was not what I expected and I remember saying out loud “oh yeah I can feel that!” Which that prompted the anesthesiologist to give me more pain medication, I believe demoral. I had informed him before that I was sensitive to all narcotics so I didn’t want anymore than was needed for the spinal block, however I did see why he thought this was needed. Not even a minute after he administered that I felt sick and vomitted. Being pinned down to the surgical table I could only turn my head which made the vomit ooze down the side of my head.

There was an issue getting Marcel out because his umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck three times. This also explained why his heart rate was dropping every time I had a contraction. My doctor got it unwrapped quickly and moved him over with the pediatrician. Vincent was moved over to the warming table with Marcel and the doctor while I was back getting sick. I couldn’t hear him cry at first which for a c-section is normal because he has a lot of fluid in his mouth that had to be suctioned out. Once he was cleared Vincent was able to bring him over to me. He was so much smaller than we expected and just so handsome. I got to snuggle with him skin to skin while the doctor finished closing my incision. I don’t recall what she used to close my uterus but she used surgical glue to close my skin.

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Once we were complete I was unhooked from most of the monitors and wheeled to the recovery room while Vincent carried Marcel along behind me. As we were going down the hallway my mother, sister and nephews came running to see our new baby. Tears rolling down my moms face and pure joy coming from my nephews. My sister checked in on me to make sure I was okay and then proceeded to see Marcel and Vincent. Vincent was so proud to show off his son for the first time.

My first months of motherhood …

Having a handsome baby boy come into my life has been such a blessing but that doesn’t mean it hasn’t been hard!

Disclaimer: this is a bit of a long story.

When Marcel was born my husband, mother, oldest sister and nephews were all at the hospital with me. Having two seasoned mothers there I was much less afraid of the birth, even when I had to have a c-section. On the way back to the recovery room I felt so proud and extremely excited to be a mother.

The first four days my mother stayed with us, it was great bonding time for all of us. Then the next week Vincent’s mom, dad and three of his siblings stayed with us, we went on walks almost everyday and had some of his aunts and uncles visit during this time. Everything felt easy-breezy with all the helpers!

At the end of that week when they left one of his sisters got to stay back with us for a few more weeks. This was a huge help because she would hold him and play with him during the day so I could get chores done and a little alone time. Her and I also really bonded during this time so I felt extra special. Sadly it did have to come to an end and she went back to her parents house.

Now comes the interesting part, Marcel was one month old now and growing so fast. Vincent is back at work now working day shifts and a few evening shifts. Being alone during the day didn’t seem so bad to me, I did struggle a little but was enjoying myself. Then September came around and Vincent had to switch to overnight shifts making our schedules complete opposites. I would wake up when he got home at 7 AM, we would sit up together for an hour then he would go to bed and I would start my day. However I would really just sit in the living room with Marcel sleeping on my lap while I played on my phone to stay quiet. This caused some issues.

Sitting silently with a sleeping baby I felt like there was a bomb strapped to me. I felt like I just couldn’t move. It gave me a lot of bonding time with Marcel but it also let me mind wander. My thoughts were anxious and emotional. I would go from being afraid he wasn’t eating enough to being annoyed at how often he would eat and then furious that I couldn’t clean the house to devastated that I wasn’t able to do it by myself.

After a few weeks of these emotions making me feel like I was loosing control and I decided to take back control. I started putting Marcel on a more strict bedtime routine which also put me in a routine, switched to taking my anxiety medication to night instead of morning (which I have been on for a few years but had been more lax since giving birth), checked out a few books on postpartum mood disorders from the library to educate myself and spoke to Vincent about how we can help each other.

It has only been about a week since I started this routine and it has already helped immensely. I still have many steps to overcome this new form of anxiety/depression and plan to share those steps with those who will listen.

What to pack in your hospital bags …

As a first time mother and someone who has to research just about everything before doing it I have compiled a list of things to bring to the hospital that will cover both vaginal and cesarean deliveries. Also lists for baby and dad!

A robe, we all know hospital gowns are not well covering and if you need to be doing laps in the hall to get baby moving this will make it more comfortable. Such as this one: https://amzn.to/2L0EytA
Nursing tanks, I absolutely loved these while in the hospital because they are soft, long and I didn’t have to wear an extra bra with them. Here’s the direct link: https://amzn.to/2Hz0FoQ
Pajamas, I ordered these in preparation because I knew I’d be in bed a lot and it wouldn’t be easy to take on and off a shirt in the middle of the night to feed my baby. Here’s the link! https://amzn.to/2zB5l92
Slip on shoes, I chose to wear my Crocs at the hospital and they were an amazing choice! Not only were they comfortable but the traction was helpful when I was sitting on the birth ball. Find them here: https://amzn.to/2LbNtrW
Adult diapers, yes I know it seems embarrassing to buy but please do! I did buy some but thought since I had a c-section I wouldn’t need them and boy did I regret it. The mesh underwear they give you at the hospital SUCKS, it is uncomfortable and if you’re like me it stuck to my skin on my butt and caused itchy scabs. Please save yourself and buy some diapers here: https://amzn.to/2ZIMJPr
Lanolin, this is extremely needed in the first few weeks (maybe even months) of breastfeeding to combat chapped, cracked and sore nipples. Buy some with this link: https://amzn.to/2MKXrTh
Nursing pads, they are needed for breastfeeding moms. Not only do they keep your dry from leakage but they also keep your nipples safe from drying and sticking to your bra. Here’s a great deal on some: https://amzn.to/2MM7mIq
Gel pads, these are one thing I didn’t have with me at the hospital and I really regret it. It is quite a shock when you breastfeed for the first time and your nipples get pretty darn sore! These will be your “breast”-friend: https://amzn.to/2LbUSYD
Swaddles, these are amazing and very easy to use! Great to soothe a sad little baby. Here’s the link to this trio: https://amzn.to/2LdclzL
Muslin blankets, they have many uses – of course to keep baby warm, to use as a receiving blanket/burp cloth and as a cover up while breastfeeding. Here’s the link to this set: https://amzn.to/2ZHaMOC

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Daily schedule as a stay-at-home mom

How I keep my house clean with a newborn is not exactly easy but in this first month we’ve gotten into a good routine to do it! (No I am not perfect and do NOT do this everyday, rest, happiness and nourishment are bigger priorities!) Also I have no idea how we will keep the house clean when I return to work too.

If you just want to see baby photos, scroll to the end.

9:00 AM Feed baby, and make bed.

9:30 AM Start laundry, eat breakfast and watch TV episode.

11:00 AM Feed baby, switch laundry, do dishes then shower (I can only shower if someone else is home).

11:30 AM Eat lunch, and run any needed errands. (If no errands then clean kitchen, bathroom, living room or office.)

1:00 PM Feed baby, fold laundry and watch TV episode.

2:00 PM NAP! (Or lay down on the couch with baby and think about napping LOL.)

3:00 PM Feed baby, do choice of leisure activity (go on a walk, craft, read, write, scroll social media.)

5:00 PM Feed baby.

5:30PM Make supper, eat & enjoy. Start movie now if it’s in the plan.

7:00 PM Feed baby, watch movie or read.

9:00 PM Feed baby, go to sleep.

I go to bed early because we wake up every 2-3 hours to eat throughout the night. This way I have time to try and catch more sleep.

After a good morning feeding I can typically leave Marcel in bed with Vincent so I can have a quiet hour to myself.
When Vincent isn’t home we typically curl up in the recliner, and yes by “we” I mean Marcel, Dixie and myself. I do love this time together.
When Marcel is fussy during the day and I need to get stuff done I will wear my DIY scarf wrap.

Anxiety about getting pregnant …

In November of 2017 I had been fed up with dealing with painful menstruation cycles and ovarian cysts that ruptured that I went to see my doctor about what I could do to fix this. After a lot of blood tests, a few more ultrasounds (than the probably 50 I had before this for my re-occurring ovarian cysts.) and some deep conversations my doctor and I decided to do an exploratory surgery to diagnose if I had endometriosis. This happened in December 2017, it turned out that I did not have endometriosis but I had a large amount of scar tissue on my ovaries that was causing problems.

That finding still did not answer all of my questions. My physical health was back to normal but mentally I was even more confused. I was freshly engaged and I knew we both wanted kids right away but had no idea if I would be able to get pregnant.

This thought terrified me to my very core. I would have total breakdowns randomly throughout the day when the smallest things about babies, and pregnancy were mentioned. I noticed this before it was too bad and started seeing a therapist. They helped me through the issues giving me a place to vent out all of my anxieties.

The main moral behind this story is that when you are having problems, physically or mentally please do see your provider! I was hesitant at first because a lot of times I felt like I got the run-around with doctors just wanting to get me in and out as fast as possible but if you do your research and find a provider that has the same beliefs as you (and interests help too) it is much more comfortable to work with them.

Happily I got married and a few months after I did get pregnant after a fun little story I will tell you soon, I gave birth to my son, Marcel Joseph. The same doctor who performed my exploratory surgery performed my emergency c-section delivery. I will tell that story in a post to come.

Disclaimer: I am not giving medical advice in this post, just telling my story.